The News
not so wonderful news...but still its a news..and what I am quite dissapointed is that it doesn't goes as plan...and even when I say I am okay with it..deep down...its actually making me sad...not the normal sad when I feel I am lonely or anything but sad that makes me lethargic...makes me unenergized....I hate this feelings...this 2011 was suppose to be my year to pay all my debts and making sure that this will be a debt free year....but then it doesn't look like I am going to do just that...I hate this feeling..it won't buzz offf....even when I told myself that its good enough but deep down inside..the 1 year of performance does not mean a things...people would say be patient next year will be you year bull shit..If I am that good this year should be a good year....well whatever it is..this year I will ensure that I bought everything that I want to buy....I just don;'t want to think bout other people's problems...who cares bout them..it my time..its my money...no one have control on them so I hate those people who always bugs me with all the problems in the world esp money...to hell with them..I hate them so much that I feel like living them....14 Feb 2011
bile tarikh ni muncul je..mesti org ingat aku nak wish Happy valentine..well...aku tak sambot pun...for so many reason but its not for the reason..pasal harini ari sbuk sangat...aku sibuk prepare untuk event pelepasan "flag off" kat Mesra mall..hahahaa....and tarikh ni tarikh keramat..pasal...besok genap la...setahun aku kat opis aku...bile da setahun...macam tak percaya aje...tak penah lagi aku ni keje kat mane2 dalam mase lame camni...asal...kadang2 gaji kecik..kdg2 macam2 kerenah and to tell u the truth..ni pertama kali aku rase puas hati ngan keje aku...wlupun aku tatau la....kalau skt aku tak mencapai had2 tertentu..aku tak ksah la..asal aku ikhlas and aku tau yang aku da keje setahun dengan penuh warna warni nyer..hahaha....tapi keje sini best...wlupun dari segi gaji..munkin laa...sedikit tak cukup...tapi ape yang nak kate kan..sesuai la dengan kelulusan yang aku ader...semalam baru aku teringat2 mase aku keje jsh dulu ngan gaji 660...hisy..kalo skang ni..kalo gaji gitu malu nak cakap.....ader sorang member aku tuh......5 tahun keje situ baru nak masok 1k....kalo aku dok kl ngan 1k..memang la tak cukup...bile pegi kl....konon2 nak idop senang sket..tapi pun takde nasib...mula2 keje..gaji aku 650 je..dahla sikit..mintak advance pasal boss asik kasik gaji sikit je...ya allah ape la nasib beb..tak tau la beb ek...sedey rase beb.......ahaha eh asal aku cakap beb2..giloz betol....by the way....chop kejap...sape nengok grammy....gile laaa si gaga...duduk dalam telur..hahahaha....adoiyai terlalu stress nengok..so looking forward nak dengar sape nyanyi...hahaha..ok sambung balik...lepas keje stu..bukan keje situ tak baik beb..bos aku baik..wlu pun kdg2p ayah bayar gaji.....aku buat show...aku buat art show..tapi masalahnyer...gaji tu..aku perlu gaji tu...yang paling best skali....aku suke keje kat situ...takde org mara ape2 pun..takde org kate..im paying u for work...tapi sebab aku perlu nak bayo sewa umah and so on..terpakse la tukar keje..sampai la keje kat sini...keje bidang aku..bukan la bidang aku sepenuhnyer...tapi boleh la....takde la berat sangat....mula2 dulu aku takot....hari kedua keje kene pegi kl...takot kene kritik..takot buat salah...takot org rase aku tak boleh...org besar ni...tak berkebolehan....tapi aku da tunjukkan kan...disebalik angin aku aku banyak buat yang okay(haha ye ke) okay aku tak boleh la..angkat bakol aku sendiri..tapi sejak keje sini mmang aku komited..and jadik PR ni bagusnye...aku pegi sane sini...pegi pulau free..pegi kl free...nak pegi kemaman free...kursus free bio tak kira bape pun kene baya.....so thank you allah.....thank you mama and abah.....thank you en hubby...thank you world...and thank you UMT for giving me the chance to work here and feel happy bout it... eh..ops lupe thank you boss...for being a good boss and easy to work with..thanks linda for being a good companion wlupun kdg2 bertegang urat..thank you to apis for making me laugh and en mokhtar for being an advisor for me in so many things and not to forget to my pkk collegues..ahahaa...kalo tak sambung mesti aku sedey...hahaha
Facebookers
On fb....aku skang ni jarang2 da nak shout any status or comment anything..melainkan gambar2 yang aku rase menarik...atau pun beg coach ke....hahaha beli2 still aku komen...tapi kalo org tag gambar ke..atau bukan sumething to discuss ke...aku lagi suke berdiam diri...kenape alih2 bertukar...ntah la..pada aku..bukan da mase nak bitau org2 fb whatever things that aku ngah buat skang ni..melainkan bende tu happy news...nak komen2 page org...aku komen..tapi bile miss sket je da macam2 komen2 lain yang aku pun tak boleh nak keep up..so better diam aje la..nak remove tag nanti org kate sombong..tak remove tag..org yang tag sampai beratos2 komen..penat gak nak bukak...so better aku biokan aje la....and aku paling tak suke org tag aku ape2 selain dari coach ...or blackberry or gadgets things..ni ader tag jamu la....perapat itu ini la..ape kejadahnyer dorang ni
koyok kaki..tampal kaki..detox kaki..pacifier baby...giloz ke...nampak cam muke aku pelu ke...kalo perlu takpe la..aku lagi suke kalo org2 camni tayah tag la..tapi fb ni bukan aku punyer..org tag paling2 pun aku buang....yang tak close tag lagi la..aku pun tak paham..dah la tak close..so what's the reason for tagging pun....hisy..mase mula2 aku join fb ni..aku teruja kalo org bagi aku ape2..skang ni..aku malas nak layan kepada yang belagak..(tapi still accept aku jadi friend) dorang yang gile glamer ke aku yang obsessed..so skarang ni kalu aku tak suke...aku malas nak komen lebey2....org ni macam2 bentuk .....dulu kat sekolah..ntah ape2..alih2 keje merepek2..ader kereta besar sket dari kite..terus menyombong..so ingat aku kesah ke (tapi kalu da komen gini..ader la sekelumit kecik ati) tapi macam biase la..kejayaan ko....bagos la...kejayaan aku..allah yang tentukan..tak kira laa..ko ader kamera dslr canggih ke...umah ko 8 tingkat ke....keje gomen ke.....gaji ko 4 ratos lebey dari gaji aku ke..pangkat ko besar dari aku ke....aku tak kesah la...yang penting ko suke aku and nak kawan..kalo takat nak ramaikan kawan2 fb ko..better ko delete je aku....buat ape kan.....takat nak tunjuk ape ko ade..jgn lupa...harini ko ader..tapi kalo ko eksyen besok lusa ko takde da.....nasib la aku ader bff yang setia...so kepada liza...elly...sheeda...lin....rem...izah....kawan2 sktp aku yang tak sombong (yang sombong boleh blah)....kawan2 teknik aku yang still keep in touch.....kawan2 ikip aku yang sampai sekarang still aku syg macam famili and kawan2 keje aku yang of coz sentiasa buat aku happy (tak kira la kat mane aku keje) thanks to you...you bright my day..as far as I am concern..yang alih2 add aku dahtu bile aku komen tak layan....pegi jalan la..delete je aku dalam list korang...its better for me to just shut up....sebab bak kate member aku motarosan..kalo aku bercakap bergegar and angin marah pun melayang....just that aku malas laa..aku malas nak jadi penipu...nak kate aku ader itu aku ader ini..aku takde pun...aku ader suami..keje biase je..hensem pun tidak..suam2 manis je...aku ader kete..kecik je....kete buatan mesia....tapi da 2 tahun berkhidmat...aku ader keje..keje yang memang melambangkan komitmen aku (tu tak boleh dinafikan) and by far keje aku best and ofis aku best...tapi ko tak nampak pun aku eksen...tak nampak pun aku terlupa kat kawan2 skolah rendah aku..tak pun aku banding2 ape aku keje ngan ape kawan2 aku keje..so kenape alih2 ko..yang keje pun tak seberapa nak level up ngan aku...kalo sekalipun ko pegawai...tapi alih2 ko berlagak..ko lupe diri..lantak ko la....aku ader kawan yang gaji berpuluh2 ribu (ko tau sape) tapi die still humble..balik carik kawan2 lame..tak penah pun aku dengar die dok gebang2 pasal ape die ade..nak banding ngan kawan2 yang konon kawan ni...yang paling best tu..pegi kenduri....nengok aku pakai ekor mate...tapi ader hati nak add aku kat fb...kepada mereke2 yang rase diri mereka terer and merasekan aku ni macam pasir je...buang la aku dari list fren korang...tak perlu pun..aku tak perlu update korang and aku tak perlu tau ape korang ade...bosaannn...kalo ko bosan cam aku..jgn lupe komen..sekadar luahan hati yang berbuku...hahaha
On life
1) Chasing Harry Winstons
I obviously suke sgt buku ni..kenape...aku jenis manusia yang tak suke serius sgt membaca..kalo serius je...boring....harus tak habis baca (tapi belom penah lagi la aku tak habiskan) so buku ni ...of course kepada sape2 yang da penah bace atau nengok cerita The Devils Wears Prada..ni author yang sama...cume cerita aje lain....mengenai 3 orang besties...just like me, liza and lin....tapi tak la exactly the same..hahaha kami bukan kaya pun..so bermula ngan cerita dorang 3 orang ni..aku tak ingat name..hahaha 1 tu memang kaya..tapi sentiasa rase takde orang nak kawen ngan die...the next one is an editor yang edit buku....die ni very straight forward..dahtu sgt2 sistematik ...anak tunggal (macam aku) tapi aku tak macam die la...da ader perfect bf...tapi still rase stress..and the last one ....die ni sebenarnyer tukang masak...tapi kene dumped by her bf...and last2 buat keputusan untuk pujuk hati sendiri by going all around the world..so a
ku habis je bace buku ni...terpikir nak beli lagi satu buku..aku pinjam je kat library..hahaah....tapi takpe la asal I did some thing on my weekends....
2) The Search of the Red Dragons
Memula bace buku ni...aku tak paham la sangat ape die ceritakan....tapi lame2 cerita ni macam cerita fairy tales..kenape..die cerita pasal peter pan..jules verne...d'artanagn from 3 musketeers, lost boy from neverland...hisy...bile die bercerita bende2 camni aku rase teruja...buku cerita time aku kecik2 dulu die tukar jadi novel yang berpusing segala-segalanya and still centre on the fairy tales..itu yang aku suke....wlu pun da besar2 gini..for me..reading is supposed to make me imagine..not beratkan kepala aku untuk fikir bende2 posibble...
3) MAC mineralize skin finished foundation
Aku kalu pegi MAC....macam2 nak beli..tapi sentiasa..duit ni bukan ader selalu...so bila ader duit sikit ..mula la aku sibuk2 kan diri nak pegi beli...So basically..aku suke mac...hahaha...ape2 la semua aku suke..cume memandangkan bajet pun tak bape besar..so skang ni aku nak tukar....dalam beberapa reviews on you tube yang aku dok nengok tiap2 hari..buleh kate tiap2 malam la.....aku rase dorang kate Revlon Color Stay tu bagos..so aku pikir nak beli color stay and lepastu finishing pakai MAC ni....kenape...pasal nengok size die..mengelembong camtu..mesti banyak kan..penting jugak sebenarnyer bedak ni..kalau nak lebih extra cantik..kene laa usaha sket...
So thats all about the things I want to ramble on....kepada sape2 yang suke dengar lagu..y not join aku dengar laju yang aku pilih ni...aku suke sgat bunyikknyer lain macam..kelaka seyy
1) Hans Zimmer - I never woke up in handcuffs before - soundtrack sherlock homes
2) Emiliani Torrini - Jungle Drum
dengar yerk..mesti korang teruja..hahah
I am Sad
Tadi petang..teman en hubby nak pegi kaver student mesia yang balik dari mesir pulak ke GAnu...dalam tak sedar....aku sedey....tersentuh lebih dari mak ayah yang tunggu anak masing2....pasal lately bile nengok berita...rase kalu ader la famili aku yang pegi kat mesir..mesti aku pun turut serta rase risau.....nasibla takdek....aku sememangnyer lately emo...tak boleh dengar bende2 sedey....air mata gugur je....so terima kasih mesia terutama PM kerana mendengar rintihan mak ayah student ni semua....mase ni la...tak kire kaler ape pun yang ko sokong..kalau pasal nak tolong rakyat mesia..same2 bergabung.....sebab tu aku bangga duduk mesia..wlu kadang2 terpelecok dengo berita2 yang tak sedap tapi bile ada masalah macamni...semua duduk same2 and tolong.......thanks tak terhingga la..... :)TUmblr
Okay so finally when I saw some of the bloggers review and so on...aku pun nak ader tumblr..this is where u can re blogs who ever u follow and to show how u how I adore taking picture and posting blabler...I am going to used this channel to show my design..artictic temperament..ahahaha and of course... me editting picture... :)baru sehari so nuthin so heavy yet..tunggu lame sket ill upload more pictures...
2011 WISHLIST
I am posting this because....dengan tibe2 akhir2 ni aku banyak menyibukkan diri menengok2 page org and page kamera ni....sebenarnyer lame da aku mengidam nak kamera ni...bukan untuk suke2..eh.untuk suke2 la..bukan nak jadi pro pun..tapi aku rase titik tolak aku menyukai kamera ni..pasal abah kot...abah...dari dulu suke kamera.....so aku otomatik sebagai anak die...anak bapak n mak aku la kate kan menyukai kamera gak..ingat lagi dulu...mase abah beli kamera slr..manual..isk..suke nyer hati aku nengok..mane tak suke beb.....tak penah ader kamera canggih yang flash die tercabot nak pakai..hahahah.....mase tu aku of course kecik g...darjah 5 kot..so aku tak bape tau pun ape fungsi2 bende2 abah beli tu....(walau abah da takde..barang2 kamera die still manyak kat umah mama)...so that's why aku rase baik jgn merosakkan lagi barang2 tu..hahaha....so d3100..kak d..own it..by far nengok gambo2 yang kak d edit with only using the normal microsoft picture manager...thumbs up la..pasal gambo memang terbaik..for an amature..mmg kak d da lvel up da.....and the price is quite ok..around 2 k kalo dpt kedai jual 2k..da boleh beli da.....so kalau ikot kan hati..nak beli ni je..pasal kak d cakap ok kan...and bukan kite nak jadi pro pun..sekadar dapat melampiaskan minat(wargghh cam perogol lak ayat gua) hisy.....so ape beza nyer..kak d kate bezanya shutter speed..so what can shutter speed do...so SS ni aku pendekkan la..kite leh capture gambo sedang bergerak yang berkelajuan tinggi....sebelom aku membebel2 lagi....aku belaja bende ni bile aku bukak blog ayunayunar (thanks ayun) and dari blog die aku terjumpe blog ezhan....yang for free mengajar macam2 ...bukan aje teknik nak memahami dslr..tapi photoshop....ni la blog yang aku mmg idamkan...org nak ajo aku teknik senang edit ape2 je pakai pS...bukan aku tak suke software lain..tapi PS ni kite leh gune macam2 kan...so ader bagos jugak laaa kalo kite belajor ...so kepada sesape yang macam aku...yang belom ader kemahiran dan belum ader lagi dlsr( jugek cam aku) nak belajo..sile klik kat name dorang eh..aku da link kan..untuk kawan2....aahaaha ...so berbalik kepada SS ni...aku nampak gambo yang die amik..kalo kite gune low ss...gambo makin pelahan...and kalo kite gune high SS ....gambo makin laju....tak caya..sile klik kat laman web ni eh....by far selepas aku memahami...ape tu SS and aperture..baru la aku paham.....hisy..susah betol nak paham bende alah ni....so mane satu aku suke....kalo ader duit.....d90 la....ss die laju so leh amik gambo yang bergerak pantas.....tapi apekan daya kalu tak mampu d3100 aje la...nanti leh jual and upgrade semula...jgn lupe....nak beli kamera kene nengok kemampuan...kalo aku tak mampu buat ape nak begadai bergolok.....takde ape yang aku leh dpt pun..melainkan gambo lawa...gi pun kalo duit tu dihabiskan kat yang mahal...camne aku nak pegi sabah bah...hahaha...so tunggu aje la..ader rezki insyallah ader la tu..takde rezki..nganga mulut kasi penuh ngan lalat..hahahahaha..
kameRa Keinginanku....
I am posting this because....dengan tibe2 akhir2 ni aku banyak menyibukkan diri menengok2 page org and page kamera ni....sebenarnyer lame da aku mengidam nak kamera ni...bukan untuk suke2..eh.untuk suke2 la..bukan nak jadi pro pun..tapi aku rase titik tolak aku menyukai kamera ni..pasal abah kot...abah...dari dulu suke kamera.....so aku otomatik sebagai anak die...anak bapak n mak aku la kate kan menyukai kamera gak..ingat lagi dulu...mase abah beli kamera slr..manual..isk..suke nyer hati aku nengok..mane tak suke beb.....tak penah ader kamera canggih yang flash die tercabot nak pakai..hahahah.....mase tu aku of course kecik g...darjah 5 kot..so aku tak bape tau pun ape fungsi2 bende2 abah beli tu....(walau abah da takde..barang2 kamera die still manyak kat umah mama)...so that's why aku rase baik jgn merosakkan lagi barang2 tu..hahaha....so d3100..kak d..own it..by far nengok gambo2 yang kak d edit with only using the normal microsoft picture manager...thumbs up la..pasal gambo memang terbaik..for an amature..mmg kak d da lvel up da.....and the price is quite ok..around 2 k kalo dpt kedai jual 2k..da boleh beli da.....so kalau ikot kan hati..nak beli ni je..pasal kak d cakap ok kan...and bukan kite nak jadi pro pun..sekadar dapat melampiaskan minat(wargghh cam perogol lak ayat gua) hisy.....so ape beza nyer..kak d kate bezanya shutter speed..so what can shutter speed do...so SS ni aku pendekkan la..kite leh capture gambo sedang bergerak yang berkelajuan tinggi....sebelom aku membebel2 lagi....aku belaja bende ni bile aku bukak blog ayunayunar (thanks ayun) and dari blog die aku terjumpe blog ezhan....yang for free mengajar macam2 ...bukan aje teknik nak memahami dslr..tapi photoshop....ni la blog yang aku mmg idamkan...org nak ajo aku teknik senang edit ape2 je pakai pS...bukan aku tak suke software lain..tapi PS ni kite leh gune macam2 kan...so ader bagos jugak laaa kalo kite belajor ...so kepada sesape yang macam aku...yang belom ader kemahiran dan belum ader lagi dlsr( jugek cam aku) nak belajo..sile klik kat name dorang eh..aku da link kan..untuk kawan2....aahaaha ...so berbalik kepada SS ni...aku nampak gambo yang die amik..kalo kite gune low ss...gambo makin pelahan...and kalo kite gune high SS ....gambo makin laju....tak caya..sile klik kat laman web ni eh....by far selepas aku memahami...ape tu SS and aperture..baru la aku paham.....hisy..susah betol nak paham bende alah ni....so mane satu aku suke....kalo ader duit.....d90 la....ss die laju so leh amik gambo yang bergerak pantas.....tapi apekan daya kalu tak mampu d3100 aje la...nanti leh jual and upgrade semula...jgn lupe....nak beli kamera kene nengok kemampuan...kalo aku tak mampu buat ape nak begadai bergolok.....takde ape yang aku leh dpt pun..melainkan gambo lawa...gi pun kalo duit tu dihabiskan kat yang mahal...camne aku nak pegi sabah bah...hahaha...so tunggu aje la..ader rezki insyallah ader la tu..takde rezki..nganga mulut kasi penuh ngan lalat..hahahahaha..Beauty
1 week after clinique skincare regiments
Okay..I am going to be posting this kind of thread for a long time..the reason is that...I just used clinique again..after abandoning it for 3 years..the reason is that right now..it seems that so much blacks spot appearing..not sure wether I am not doing the right thing or anything but because I am not a heavy acne girl..kuar la jerawat..tipu tak kuar..tapi kuar pun..sekali sekala...right now what bothers me is ..die jadik kaler itam...so I went and bought a trial set...well what I saw in the piccas was...quite ok..i tote..okay i should last me 1 month before I decided to buy the big bottle...tapi bile die dtang..alaah...cumelsss sgt....15ml..travellng size..so what am I to do with it..since I am out of budget..bayao duit insuran kete this month..I just go ahead and used it..kecik pun kecik la..hopefully it last until 24th of feb....hahahha...this month maybe a lil bit kopak..the reason is that.....gaji maybe separuh aje..pasal kontrak not sure sambung bile and got so many bills to pay...kene dahulukan bills la...but en hubby promised to buy for me a new HP....which is because my ole j10i asik hang je...(thanks en hubby....) tapi belom lagi la...maybe tunggu ujung bulan kot..hahaha...so pusing balik cite...so I have been using it for 1 weeks..the result is....the dark spot are becoming lighter and lighter...so I dont have any visual to prove it..I guess I just need to used it for 1 month...for me....its better to try it up first right..before taking a bigger bottle ....and not using it..lame da dengar cerita org kate clinique bagos..tapi most of the time..takde duit..so hold aje la...so skang ni bile muke da serabot nengok..I think this is the time for me to actually care for my face..nanti jadik scaring lagi susah nak maintain..kalo bagos lain kali leh try produk lain...been so craving on tring skII tapi belom ader duit as usual....hahaha..ill review again once I finish using the trial sets....:))Cravingsss
Me and my cooking
I am not sure what kind of vege is this...hahaha i think its bok choi..haha
this is actually called "jambu epal"
Asparagus goreng belacan
sotong masak hitam
I guess this visual sums up everything....im cooking some simple dishes for en hubby as usual.......Cravingsss
Junior MasterChefs
Have u watch it?...if no..then u should..and like me an avid fan of masterchef us...so now its a junior version of it....u witness all the small girls and boys cooking like a pro..I remember when I was still in my junior years of schooling..mama and abah both of them works..so most of the time..I will be left alone especially when I finish school I would go back and watch tele..of course at that time u don't have all those fancy reality food program but...I tend to do whatever recipe in the tele...I am still spoilt..I know how to cook..but I never did cook when mama and abah was around...only when abah was not there I start to cook..I guess what ever food that I cook reminds me of him....even when he was gone 7 years ago I still remember him as my cooking idol...opss not to forget..mum's teaches me all the malays cuisine...abah teaches me all the indian's food...so its a balance..and till now whenever I went back home I still prefer my mum's cooking most of the time..so this junior masterchef is actually reminicense of me when I was little..but still its a good way for me to actually in awe with how good this kids were..so ill update whenever I have time on my right now like show..hehehe..although I know who wins..but still its still sumething that I want to see everyday...heheheCny Holiday....
Its not that late for me to wish Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends..well so this is what I am doing in my 3 days holiday...since I went to Cameron last weekend..so no budget already to go back home..,but nevermind coz I will be back in JB either in the middle of the month or end of the month..the reason for all the not so knowing when to have a day off is that I am not sure wether the contract is going to be re-new or not..but then..if let say it does not have any positive feedback..i guess I will just go back to my ole hometown..spend some time with my family...haven't been resting in a long time ....yup of course all the month I have been taking holiday....but with a stressfull working time i guess for me..releasing all the burden is important..holiday...and going back to JB is everything that keeping me sane here.....so if let say there were no hopes for me..I guess I have to get ready in ensuring that I need to find another job that suit me.....and what am I blaberring about..u will never know what the future hold right..up to 15 of February...I will just be patient about it..after that I'll just pray that it will be re-new and be here...at least that is what I am contented to do....and by far this is the shittiest holiday mood for me..of course I can say I am okay..but I am not.....Miss Me
aku menulis ni atas dasar...lately...aku banyak berhubung ngan kawan2 sekolah and kawan2 lepak mase aku kat jb....so bile da bebual2 cerita kenangan memori lame2 tuh...dorang pun mesti tanye...bile aku nak balik jb (kampung terchenta)....kalu ikotkan harini jugak aku nak balik..tapi keadaan tak mengizinkan la....nak balik sendiri pun tak best...bukan tak best ape pun...pasal kalo takde kete..payah sikit la nak berjalan sane sini....aku pun senang nak pegi jalan2...so kengkawan kene tunggu ujung bulan 2 kot..bile pulus dah masok and aku da merindukan kampungku..skang ni pun sebenarnyer rindu....tapi rase baru je balik aritu..haaha....rindu nak lepak ngan kawan2 sekolah sebenarnyer...lame tak jumpe..tak tanye perkembangan...nasib la ader FB buleh la berbual..tapi ader yang da lupe da dulu mase sekolah rapat..tapi tak kisah la tu..bagi aku..kalu die nak berkawan..die kawan..tanak sudah...aku tak rugi pun..die pun tak rugi gak..hahaha..so win win situation..ape yang aku rindu....eh..lupe..kawan2 citibank pun aku rindu..teringat hari jumaat pegi kotaraya makan same2...wlu pun nak ikotkan aku keje sane kejap aje...tapi aku suke la....hahaha ok laa..dari babling bout so many things...better bace sokabar jap...hhuhuFailure...
I am not sure whether u are like me or not...but me...the truth bout me is that I am always afraid of being a failure.....but is that me? whenever I did try sumething new for example sports...I am afraid that I will failled better yet if it were for choosing to represent a team..if I were not it in..it would break me...u see....all those grumpy and hard as ice me...i actually mellow...I am afraid that I would not be with the cool group..I will be at the end of the road and I actually did not take long to find anybody who wants to be close to me ...why ooo why... I have always been negative bout me...mums always said that I could get a better bf or better in a lot of things..but me...the old me..never believe that I could succeed in getting a handsome bf of anything...but when I come to this age..shame is nuthing I guess..Since getting married..I dont even care bout how I look like...(of coz makeup still plays a role in my life) what I mean is....when I was single...I so want to dress up..want people to adore me...and most importantly I would feel so shy if let say somebody (guys) look at my way...of coz...if comparing me to all the beyoootiful ladies out there I would not be winning but I guess I got sumething that they want to look.hahaa..or they just would like to say " hey u fat bitch..move out of my way" I was so low in my self esteem that I would be so shy whenever people see me..even if they are not saying anything....but now...I realised that..what I am doing is reflecting on my relationships...so I tend to not care what ever people say as long as my lovey dovey hubby is okay with it..I don't even care if people say anything bout me...as long as it doesn't come out from my hubby's mouth...and the truth is...when u know somebody really love u and appreciate u..u of coz will feels better bout it..he may not have a high education..may not own a sports car...may not even be the brightest man in the world..but I now he loves me so much..that he just shuts down all the negative things bout me...after all..I was a lil bit smaller than I am right now when he notice me...I was without my make ups...I was wearing a blue sweater in the middle of the afternoon..yet he's sees me....I may be bossy all the time and may be nagging him..but he knows...he really knows how I adore him and wish that even if I was a failure...he would be there for me....till end of time...I know rite now..its hard for him to gives me everything...I might not get myself a 5 years old belated birthday present and a hopeful and desperately need vacations but still he was there..through thick and thins. I love u hubby..even if its not our birthday or our anniversary...I will always love u.....and the failure in me actually ceased down when I met u......
Beauty
Face U
Hello...so I have been fans to some of the local bloggers tribute ever since I read some thread they post in their blogs.....so one of my favourite bloggers is Sue Anna Joe... I link her after this..so what she was saying is that its hard to maintain a good healthy looking face now that u're in the end of ur 20's...(that's me one of them)....so this is the problem...I think I didnt use make up when I was in school up to the age of 20....after that its make up this and make up that..and what bothers me most of the time was blackhead....but then when I came to the age of 27 recently something else was slowly creeping up...hahaha..now if let say I got a pimple in my face its like a big one and I can't seem to do anything bout it....at one time it will become black and at last there will be a black scars in my face...and to this event...I bought clinique the tester size just to ensure that the pimples and the scars will go away...so Sue Anna Joe is trying some local brand and I am waiting for the result...why? for me...if sumebody can actually manage to do sumething bout all the face pimples and scarring and doesn't cost a millions to actually buy the product..why not try it right.....so I am trying to find in my closet any pictures of me without makeup...and check in a few months of weeks later wether the product im using right now can actually help me and my scarring problems.....and by the way...just wan to say Good Luck Sue...hopefully it will be a good product for u and for me (when u reveal) it to try..hahaha
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